7 years later, and nothing is the same.

I can't even believe that it has been this long. When that photo was taken that I last posted in 2012, it was the day after I had tried something for the first time, that would lead me down a very dangerous path. I can't fucking believe it. Everything is soo different. I wouldn't have ever imagined this, but I am so very happy about it. (to say the very fucking least) literally, because I don't even have time right now. Impromptu post. (good.bye.)

when nights turn into mornings...

a lot of those happening lately.

so ready...

the last few weeks of this year have been wonderful, the few months before that... wow, thank the stars for a new year!!

loving life today! celebrations this evening!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cTQ1sJFtH1Y


in two months i will be brand new!

moon flowers!

my love is in NYC, i am watching his home... reading books, sitting on the porch... lovin' life..

& sO iT gOes

here i am. i am here. i will be strange, i am a stranger.


(i will be good at vanishing.)

my bath is waiting

WOW

I cannot believe that I have not written in so long. That is due to a prolonged absence of internet connection... & I have been reading sooo much... Traveling (Hawaii, NYC) ahhh, so much <3 in my life .....

we are lazy but we still love bbaniamlz. to labor day - a most labourous day ended with this.

bbyanimalz.

http://bbyanimalz.blogspot.com/

new thing.

market dayz

peter is on his way downstairs to make coffee... a couple weeks ago, we went to the public market and went totally crazy. it was so awesome.

travels

i arrived in nyc at 5am. walked, and then i saw this.

it was weird.

tryon park and its splendour

a finer day would have been impossible

made to love magic.

wow. blue moon. splendid new years. could a girl ask for more? the snow is a fallin'. its gorgeous and my life is feeling pretty great. Capitol G!

your a cartoon, i'm a full moon.... lets stay up.

a kiss.



(with everything that is going on, i feel overwhelmed. & overwhelmingly calm. warm. happy.)

wait a second...

3am party planner(s);

its time
** the lights are out
And Why?

affected, amused
and i'm still not used to it

the darkness is all we have.
its impossible to calm the storm in the depths of my head but when the light ceases it is okay --- 'cause less definition is easier, and I know its all gone.
but not lost.

it was always a business doing pleasure with you
I wish I could pretend to be listening
I can't afford this exchange rate

breakin' bottles
in this moment i'm with it
And silently I wonder what this image on my eyelids.
how often does it change.
is it me, the universe or both?
the connected-ness evades me and i claim to crave the understanding And at the very same instance i know its the course that will be. and shell be. there is no new thing.
(cease)
slow motion picture show
and the slightest glance to the side

comfortable silence


I prefer to stay backwards
I can only sleep upside down
I treasure these moments
by trying to forget them

holy snow

i worked slingin' espresso all evening. the snow outside was perfectly delightful and i went out and had a cigarette underneath the sky and it was positively intoxicating.


note: some people "get it", and other people just do not "get it". those people never will. i could go on.

windfalls of cash.

wednesday: going to be a good day. great invention universe! thanks!

hot & cold

its really hot
&
humid outside.

I like the way it feels in my apartment.

i need to shower, and i am hungry.

boring.

$$

i got my first paycheck, in like, months.

awakening.

things are starting to come together.

fux lounge.

yes yes yes

i am going to do it. in another city, i am going to create a bar atmopsphere... FUX LOUNGe. in honor of our very own Lux Lounge.

that's all for now.